So… I’m on the second to last pill of placebo week of my birth control… and I just realized that this batch expired in May 2010. HOLY FUCK. I am so screwed. T_T

"basically in the world of happy endings you are penny and i am max..."

OMFG ARE YOU SERIOUS??? this makes me so incredibly happy. first, i can stop being sad that he'll never like me because guess what?? HE'S GAY! second, this just brings us 50 billion times closer knowing that i was one of the first people he told and that we have nothing to hide from one another anymore. third, I HAVE A GAY BEST FRIEND. life is complete. :)

also i'd like to point out that OF COURSE HE'S GAY. i mean, why else would he have not liked me?? haha ok ok i'm kidding. but seriously, i know how to pick them. the fuck was i doing liking a gay guy for half a year?!?!?!?! I feel like i should watch all of will&grace now just so i know what to do and how to deal with this.

AHHHHHHHHH i'm so heppy! is that bad?? i mean, i cant hate him anymore and this just makes us better friends. also, i know it must be hard for him lying to everyone so this must be a weight lifted off of his shoulders. well im sure it'll be hard coming out to everyone. i'm sure not everyone will be as ecstatic as i am about it. he should just know that i'm here for him and it should be fine because he's still the same person.. only more FABULOUS! yeah yeah yeah!

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K: ohh so in vegas we ran into dena's friend and his god brother, his god sister, and his god sister's husband. anyway, the husband was super funny and really cool. & I just found out that he said that he thought i was really funny!! :O IM SO HAPPY! he was extremely funny and the thinks that i'm funny?!?? that makes it legit! ^__^
J: haha you didnt know that you are funny? wake up fool!
K: Wha?? i'm only funny sometimes... i dont know!! but he was just soooooo cool! I just feel all lfdafsl;;dajsdfjasdl;fjas :D :D
J: well you be happy! you make me laugh but iono if thats a compliment because I'm easily entertained haha
K: that... was one until that little disclosure there -___- thanks?
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J: my brother makes fun of me for not getting laid :( he's like just go to a bar and get drunk and regret it in the morning -__-
K: lol i can help you out if you'd like.
J: no i'm not about to go out and get trashed and get an STD lol
K: I... don't think you got what i was saying.
J: oh yeah.. no i know what you're saying lol
K: lol just making sure. i was gonna say if you're that slow that i'm gonna revoke my offer.
J: ahhahahahaha yeah i'm not a retard -___-
K: you sure about that?
J: you bitch -_-
K: <3
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C: sup?! ^_^
K: hi!!! fill me in on your life, kiddo! i miss talking to you.
C: well, lots changed! no gf, playing basketball for a school, got a keyboard. it goes on and on! how about you? i know! i feel like i always have fun talking to you!
(i'm ignoring the fact that he stopped talking to me when he got a girlfriend even though we were so close and talked to each other frequently prior then & how he's probably talking to me now that he doesn't have one anymore...)
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*talking about his girl problems*
C: lol kristela help me!!!!! its not even her friend. enough about this... when will you be back so we can hang? i like talking to you about just life and shizzzz. and i do mean this sincerely, unlike all the other bs i say to other people lol
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J: i missssss you
K: lies!! you just saw me!!
J: no i didnt haha
K: like 2 days ago!
J: 2 days too many

and very scared for saturday (my bday party), tuesday (my actual bday), & our apartment's joint july bday dinner (sometime after dena's bday). AHHHH MY LIVER IS NOT GOING TO BE HAPPY... but i will be :)